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Finally seeking therapy. I've been trying to get through college on just meds, and that's been a mess. I've made a mess. I'm a mess. Trying to clean things up, though. I just moved home to California to stay with my family and find a good psychiatrist and therapist to work through the backlog of issues I've been ignoring for years. Hopefully it's not too late.
Voiceless
I'm hitting a bit of a rut in my art lately, not so much literally as emotionally and mentally.
The older I get, the more I practice. . . well, I've been seeing myself improve a little, bit by bit. And that's encouraging. But the same time, I'm realizing the difference between my work and the work of artists I really admire seems to be more than just hard work, practice, and time.
My dad and I have discussed for years a certain, subtle sort of division in the arts. There's the art that's achievable through practice--if you're a musician, practicing solos day after day until the performance arrives, the way my brother has for years. The way
Hospitalized
I did something stupid the other day and now I'm in the hospital.
I miss my laptop and my drawing tablet. God I miss my drawing tablet. I have commissions to finish.
That is all.
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I can't get enough of Human by Christina Perri. And I can't wait for her new album. And I want that bracelet. That is about all there is to this journal.
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Cleanup
My dA is getting obscenely cluttered. I have a problem with just uploading things without deleting old WIPs or really properly sorting my categories. I'm probably going to go through and zap just about everything at some point in the near future and then re-upload and/or re-sort things. So um, if you catch me mid-cleanup, don't freak out. I'm not going anywhere. ^u^
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It's never too late to fix things especially when you are still so young. Lots of people don't even try to fix things until they are old and wrinkly. I am proud of you for admitting to yourself that what you are doing isn't working. A lot of people wouldn't have the guts to seek out help. And if your friends and/or family helped to push you into this direction it still says a lot. It says that you are worth it. It says you are loved. I am sorry I haven't been around lately. I love you! Good luck! I have faith in you and your ability to push through this hard time. You definitely deserve to be happy and to feel like you are worth all of everything. <3